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Bringing the inside out.

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This is so much of what it is all about for me. Bringing the inside out. Losing it enough to let it out from the inside. Even the everyday stuff.


Donna and I had a good joke going last weekend that she is the outside and I am the inside. We want to do a class someday where she creates the exterior and I create the interior of an album. She thinks I am deep. I think I am just me. Whatever the heck that means.


This page here is an example of how I work to get myself out of a rut. I play. I needed to just do. I make myself make something. Even if it feels yuck and I think it sucks. Even if it is so not coming together. I keep at it. Screwing with it until something comes out. Whatever it is that needs to get out so that I can move forward.


Tonight it began with the idea of do. It morphed from there. The stream-of-consciousness journaling along the bottom:

Sometimes I think I forget how to create. How to just be me. TO get off the computer and just play. Freakin' play. I see so much. I have so much to say. So much about just bringing the inside out. Come out come out wherever you are. Where are you? Inside waiting. And percolating. Jamming to internal tunes. On the inside. I am going to draw you out. Bring it home. On the outside. Front and center.

And so it goes. I feel better. Like I did get something out. And now I can move on to the next.

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  1. Diane A says…
    07/26/2005

    you are just awesome!! You inspire me soooo much. Thank you so much for showing us the inside and ouside. You are truly an amazing woman!! Have a great night!!

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  2. Jocelyn says…
    07/26/2005

    This is amazing. So gorgeous and very inspiring! The best part is that it's raw and real. And that's a beautiful thing :)

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  3. AmyG says…
    07/26/2005

    I really like this Ali!!! :) Thanks for the continual inspiration.

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  4. Marcy says…
    07/26/2005

    In awe again.

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  5. Kass says…
    07/26/2005

    I wish my playing looked like that!! it's great - as ever - Ali!!

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  6. Kim says…
    07/26/2005

    Hi.
    I just wanted to say thank you for your posting baout the article on the research linking vaccinations with autism, that my freind Nikki forwarded to me. My daughter is now seven and has never been vaccinated. It has been difficult making this decision when there is so much social pressure to do so... particularly with a child with allergies and the like. There is a stigma against parents who do not immunize, as if it is abusive. A friend decided to get her son immunized when he was around four. She felt insulted with how the nurses treated her. Repeatedly I revisited the issue, when my daughter hit differnt age markers. Repeatedly I decided against it. My midwife lent me many books on the subject, when I was pregnant. Each time I came to visit the issue I thought baout injecting mercury, antifreeze, and monkey liver into my daughter. I just could not do it, regardless of what anyone else had to say or the looks I get.
    Would you be upset about the issue if your child was not autistic? It is possible that you could be. I know I am, and my daughter is neither autistic or ADHD/ADD.
    I hope that one day you will find peace knowing that you did what you thought was right, and are not guilty for the outcome. Your choice to immunize might not have altered the outcome. That we will never know. What I do know, by how charged you are by this issue, is that you care... and that is what is important. I learned from my friend Linda (who was deaf an excelled nonetheless) while I was in University that all people regardless of life challanges can make the world a better place - impacting the world for the better. It is still possible for your child too. Sometimes the dreams can not beheld until after they happen.
    Be Well.
    In Spirit, Kim
    P.S. I am sending the link to freinds of mine that have not had children yet. Maybe they can make a more educated decision than most.

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  7. Kate says…
    07/26/2005

    Rad Ali, just rad! sometimes girl I swear the part I love best about you is that you are so open and honest and you channel my thoughts. I was having some thoughts like that tonight- I've been ina rut and I feel this brwing in me to just be me on my pages. I need to let some art out- some way to delve inside and explore more. Right on girl, right on.

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  8. Maria says…
    07/26/2005

    Wow....absolutely inspiring!

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  9. Peggy says…
    07/26/2005

    Thanks so much for not ceasing to amaze me with inspiration. I am going to "play" my frickin butt off tomorrow night! Love this!

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  10. Florence says…
    07/26/2005

    I love that you embrace your own imperfection - that you aren't afraid of risk of being yourself...in so many ways such a wonderful inspiration!
    Thanks --btw love the flowers... what are those? how did you do that?

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  11. céline says…
    07/26/2005

    That's all about my life and art too,Ali :)
    your page - which you should include in a personnal art journal - is absolutely pure eye candy!
    Céline (from the PLAY project :D )

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  12. Brandy says…
    07/27/2005

    WOW that is just amazing Ali....
    and an inside and out class with you and Donna...when and where? LOL!! That would be just WOW!!!

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  13. Tracy says…
    07/27/2005

    Hi Ali, I love this lo...love how art journalling really allows the story to unfold more slowly, using layering as the medium. The layering possibilities seem endless in art journalling. The story is not right on the surface, as it tends to be in scrapbooking...the layering allows the story to settle under the surface, and below that and so on....until you decide, that's it I have uncovered the story. and then you step back and see another side to the lo, the real key to the page. the real message. the real unveiling, the gift. the discovery. I just love the process of unfolding through art and journalling. It's a kind of therapy! Thanks for turning us onto this art journalling style...Tracy

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  14. Linda A. (elendae) says…
    07/27/2005

    Absolutely fab, Ali! Love it, love the passion behind it!

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  15. Susan says…
    07/27/2005

    This blows me away, Ali! Holy cow! Everything you touch turns to gold.

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  16. Leigh says…
    07/27/2005

    You are deep.

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  17. Chris says…
    07/27/2005

    Love it. This post really struck a chord with me today. While I'm reading about "The Miracle of Mindfulness", you're living it! Thanks for sharing your beautiful illustration.

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  18. Rachel says…
    07/27/2005

    you think more than the surface thoughts. if that makes you deep...then that's pretty cool. Love how you are exploring and expanding your boundaries. way cool :)

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  19. Carrie says…
    07/27/2005

    Beautiful thoughts and page, A.
    But I have to say that I know you well enough to say this... I must disspell the myth that you are always deep. LOL - the Ali I know can be anything but deep at times. ;)

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  20. Kristin says…
    07/27/2005

    I just had to laugh at the "freakin play!" text on the layout! That definitely sounds like the words that go on in my head!

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  21. Jen G says…
    07/27/2005

    Great lo, Ali. Sometimes a kick in the pants in the right move -- "freakin' play" is right!

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  22. Kristi the Fashionista Effer says…
    07/27/2005

    This is good stuff...letting it all come out. Spilling. And can I just state for the record, I am SO SO happy that you said "freakin" cause it restores my faith in the scrapping world...not all scrappers are uptight and fake. Whew!! I was nervous for a minute.

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  23. Jill S. says…
    07/27/2005

    Simply beautiful Ali. And BTW - when you and Donna decide to do the Inside/Out class (hopefully on the West Coast :) , sign me up. I'll be the first to support your endeavor. Hopefully today you're taking a rest in the beautiful sunshine to prepare yourself for the travels to come. Time for YOU.

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  24. Shelley says…
    07/27/2005

    Just exactly where I feel I need to go. Searching inward, and then letting it spill out. Haven't connected lately with that "deep" part of me, my creative side. Great that you can go there and find that place.

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  25. jessica m says…
    07/27/2005

    Love you Ali!
    Love your ideas.
    Love your thoughts.
    Love your creativity.
    Love your growth.
    Love your self insights.
    Love YOU!
    Jessica

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