Health Update & Listen To Your Body

I had planned to be sharing photos of my trip to Bali with you these last few days but I ended up having a crazy health scare with deep vein thrombosis (a blood clot in my leg) and pulmonary embolisms (blood clots on the lungs) that landed me in the hospital last weekend. I've been sharing some of the story on Instagram and wanted to share a bit more of an update here. 

My hope in sharing some of the more private details in this post is to encourage you to listen to your own body and to take action if/when it's needed to save your life or potentially that of someone you love. There is a lot more information about blood clots online (they can be caused by a variety of different things and not just long plane flights) but my suggestion is to talk to your own doctor if you have concerns. The internet can be a very scary place for health-related information and misinformation.  

Here's my story:

After returning home from Bali I had a leg ache/cramp in my lower right calf that wouldn't go away. For me it was a pain that made me want to keep stretching it - it was not noticeable on the outside of my leg (no redness or swelling). We had returned to the US on Sunday and I resumed my regular day to day life activities. By Thursday the calf pain was still present and I developed a low grade fever and was experiencing an overall feeling of "not goodness" (which can sometimes be known as jet lag to make it that much more complicated). I worked in the morning and then told Katie I needed to take a nap. Once I was up and walking around again I continued to not feel good and told Aaron that I wanted to go to a local Urgent Care (it was after 5pm) to have them check me out because the pain hadn't gone away and I was starting to feel nervous about it (fearing a blood clot due to my recent long travel). After arriving at Urgent Care I was told to go to the ER because they didn't have an ultrasound machine to test for a clot. 

There was a lot of mental second guessing going on along the way even in the beginning. Should I just wait until tomorrow and talk to my regular doctor? This is probably nothing. I hate going to the ER because I know how much it costs just walking in the door. It's probably nothing. But I'm definitely the person that wants to know what's going on and my anxiety is the kind that motivates me to take action/get a resolution vs. hide. 

I drove over to the ER and checked in. They called in someone to do the ultrasound and told me that I had a clot in my right calf that stretched into my right knee (called deep vein thrombosis/DVT). After some discussion they decided to start me on a blood-thinning medication (Pradaxa) and send me home. They asked multiple times if I had tightness in my chest or trouble breathing and at that point it wasn't an issue I was aware of for myself. At the end of my time there the last nurse I talked to said to me, "Here's the deal: if you feel anything strange, anything out the ordinary like shortness of breath or lightheadedness or pain in your chest, come back in here right away. This isn't something to mess around with." I think his very specific warning helped guide my decisions the over the course of the next day. Just a note for the sake of my memory - the wait that night for some people in the ER was 9 hours. I was lucky (or unlucky as the case may be) to be in and out of there in just a little over 3 hours. 

The fear with blood clots in your legs (or in your arms) is that they break off and travel to your lungs, heart, or brain. Without being overly dramatic, it can be fatal. According to the Mayo Clinic, "About one-third of people with undiagnosed and untreated pulmonary embolism don't survive."

So with that in mind (yikes), I went about my fairly regular routine and drove to fill my new subscription and did some work at my desk. I was tired and a little scared/anxious about what was happening, but okay. Early in the afternoon I was on the phone and walked upstairs to my bedroom and was winded and had trouble catching my breath while holding the conversation and needed to sit down. That is not normal for me at all and I definitely took note but chalked it up to just an overall feeling of fatigue that I was experiencing (international travel + moving in + getting back to work + the stuff of life).  

I was scheduled to go sign loan papers for a refinance of my house at 2pm and had planned to drop Audrey off with her Mom on the way to the appointment. While driving there I became lightheaded (and, at that point, very scared). I wondered if my anxiety was getting the best of me and was I creating these feelings or was it really a very bad sign (I learned after the fact that anxiety can be a warning sign for pulmonary embolisms - even more challenging for someone who already deals with anxiety). I dropped Audrey off and then decided to drive straight to the ER. I walked in and, through big crocodile tears, told the intake person that I swear I wasn't crazy and that I could possibly be making this up because I'm so worked up or something could be really wrong with me. I told her what I had been experiencing and they got me started in the triage process. 

I had an ekg and my vitals were fine. I was moved out of triage to a bed in the main section of the ER and met with a doctor. There was more crying on my part as I told her my story and that "sometimes I just cry when I talk when I'm really afraid" (those of you who've been around awhile might remember me learning the lesson about continuing to talk even when you're crying). After listening and checking me out she suggested doing a spiral ctscan because then I would either know it wasn't an issue or it would be and we'd go from there. Aaron arrived. They hooked me up to an IV to receive some kind of iodine injection during the ctscan. It was all very surreal but I felt really glad to be getting checked out to either alleviate my fear or take the next steps. 

I waited close to an hour and then the doctor came back and let me know that there the ctscan detected a series of small blood clots on my lungs (I remember her saying two but at the follow-up visit to my doctor today we got to see the scans and there were definitely more than two). I might have cheered a little bit just in knowing that I wasn't making it up but I was also still very scared about what it all really meant. From there I ended up being admitted to the hospital for monitoring while they started me on Lovenox (a low-weight molecular heparin that is injected). I spent the night in the hospital and had the chance to talk to a bunch of different nurses and the doctor about what was happening - if everything stayed stable they planned to send me home the next morning. 

I know not everyone likes the hospital but I'm one of those people who doesn't mind. I was really happy to be monitored and to alleviate some of the bigger fears I was experiencing under the care of nurses and a doctor. I wasn't in a hurry to get out of there. 

The noisy chatter of all that is regular life (work, the internet, meetings, decisions to be made, putting all the stuff away in the house, etc) stopped and all that was left was the most important things: the people. I'm really thankful to my local community of friends and family who reached out with support and help with all the kids (and support directly for Aaron) while I was in the hospital. It's amazing how people mobilize when things like this happen.  

The next day we talked about discharging me. I was still feeling "off" overall but my vitals were fine and I wasn't experiencing shortness of breath or any other major symptoms. We decided to have me do a walking test around the floor (I was in the cardiac unit of a section of the hospital called the Heart & Vascular Center) to watch my blood oxygen levels. As I walked around I was doing okay but towards the end my oxygen levels starting dropping below a level they were comfortable sending me home. So I stayed another night.   

I really do try to live a life that focuses on gratitudes in my everyday life. Sitting in my hospital bed I had time to reflect on all that from a very different perspective once again. Health scares have a way of bringing the most important things, what truly matters, of our lives into acute focus. I might have laughed out loud a few times there in the room by myself - at the absurdity of the whole situation - and I gave so much thanks that I was okay and not the alternative. It was a very direct message to stop and rest. 

The next day (Sunday) I had an echocardiogram (ultrasound of the heart) and I did another walk-around test where my levels stayed closer to where they should be so it was decided I didn't need to take any oxygen home with me. The orders from the doctor were to rest and to continue getting the Lovenox injections for a few more days and then go back on the Pradaxa and check in with my doctor within a week. If I experienced any of the same symptoms again I'm supposed to go to the ER. I felt comfortable going home and was ready for the next phase (and significantly more calm then when I entered the ER on Friday night). 

Coming home was the best gift. That night I sat on my bed with Aaron and all the kids while he played guitar while watching The Killers concert on Quello (an ironic band name for the situation but one of my favorites) and all the kids were either dancing or watching and I was overcome with gratitude for what is right now. It was one of those moments I don't think I'll forget.

The next few days were spent in bed with the exception of going to an infusion clinic for the Lovenox injections each morning (thankful to my friends who came over and took me to my appointment). I've been taking it as easy as I can with lots of resting, napping and reading. I was seriously so glad I had my Kindle along with me for the entire experience. So much waiting and resting both in and out of the hospital. From Thursday to yesterday I read Dark MatterWhere'd You Go BernadetteBefore The Fall and The Aviary. I didn't watch any TV. I turned off any noises on my phone. I just let my body rest. 

Today I'm heading to the doctor for a check-in after this week. I'm looking forward to asking more questions and seeing what his take is on things. I'm cautiously optimistic that the medicine is doing what it's supposed to do and I'll be on it for the next three to six months at least. I'm taking it super slow and doing a little bit here and there and resting when I get tired (which is still often). 

But I'm here and I'm oh so very thankful. 

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  1. Amygretchen says…
    08/26/2016

    We are so alike Ali. my anxiety has saved me more than once. ;) My heart goes out to you and I applaud you for sharing your experience so that we could be reminded of the importance to listen and act. I'm glad your getting the rest you need.

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  2. scrapfin1 says…
    08/26/2016

    Thank you for sharing your story. Such important information. Hoping you are feeling better soon and sending warm thoughts to you.

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  3. vkimmycat says…
    08/26/2016

    Thank you for sharing your story so that others may learn to heed their bodies' messages!! So very important!!

    I am glad that you followed up and did not put off going to the er so that you can begin treatment and recovery. So much to be thankful. Never downplay your anxiety - never!! You are on the road to getting back into the swing of things, just don't rush it. Hang in there and know that I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers :)

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  4. robyn_karsten says…
    08/26/2016

    Thanks for the update and for sharing your story! I've been a longtime follower of yours and getting the news of your diagnosis was like hearing it was one of my own family members. You have a huge community of supporters sending oodles of good vibes your way. Continue to rest and heal!

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  5. Kristin_A_ says…
    08/26/2016

    Oh Ali, thank you for taking the time to share your story. How very scary. I have no doubt that lives will be saved because of what you've shared. I will keep you in my prayers and pray not only for quick and full healing, but wisdom for your doctor as well. I hope it goes without saying that all of us are so grateful that you went to the ER even though you weren't sure at the time. You make the world a better and more beautiful place and I am grateful for the inspiration and encouragement you share here on your blog. I have really enjoyed all the December Daily sneak peeks this week and look forward to seeing your kit on Monday. Take care of yourself. Much love!

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  6. LaLa2012 says…
    08/26/2016

    Ali, I'm SO glad you're okay. Thank you for listening to your body and sharing your experience with us as a reminder to listen to ours. It's hard to do, sometimes. It's good to be reminded. Many bright blessings to you, and may you recover quickly and completely and never have that kind of scare again.

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  7. Julief says…
    08/26/2016

    So thankful that you are doing better. Sending you strength and a big hug!

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  8. scrappinjam says…
    08/26/2016

    Ali - Thanks for giving us an update. Glad to hear that you are on the mend. Take the time to rest and take care of yourself. Relax and enjoy your family. Everything will still be there when you are feeling back to normal.

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  9. Inkfanatic says…
    08/26/2016

    Sooooo thankful for you & your family that you paid attention to your body, sought the care you needed, and are doing well now! As a nurse, I know how scary this situation can be for all of you. I'm glad to hear too, that you are taking the time you need to rest & be well! Thanks for taking the time to share this story. Take your time, & be well :))

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  10. Barmor says…
    08/26/2016

    Thank God you were diagnosed quick and on treatment! Bless you creative genius! Now rest up!!

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  11. ScrappinMyHeartOut says…
    08/26/2016

    Praying that you will get only good news from the doctor and on subsequent check-ups. Keep up the good work of resting! As a caretaker of someone with extreme anxiety, I can so relate to what you've said. I take my girl to the doctor on the first sniffle at times - it's the only way to stop the panic. And you know what? That's ok by me. I will also pray that your anxieties will continue to ease as you heal. I can say with certainty that "we" - your customers, blog followers - dare I say "groupies" - are going to stand by you and support you through this. Last but not least, I so applaud your bravery. You are amazing.

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  12. shortcakescraps says…
    08/26/2016

    I've been thinking about you since I read your first post about this on IG and am glad that you could give us an update. I'm so happy that you are okay!

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  13. bevnoelle says…
    08/26/2016

    Thank you for sharing so openly about your health scare, as a nurse I fully understand the gravity of this issue & I am also so thankful that you and Becky Higgins have so openly shared how important it is to know how your body ticks in healthy mode & to take seriously any deviation from that even if you fell you are being way too cautious, our bodies are marvellous things & we only get 1 and 1 life to share with those we love

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  14. Ekaterine says…
    08/26/2016

    Praying for you Ali, sincerely loving you and admiring you from the other part of the world. I'm so happy and thankful to know through you blog and classes! I so hope for all the best to you, so proud of you for the way you react to things, for the way you gracefully go through life and share it with us. You are such an amazing woman! Thank you so much for just being who you are the way you do it every single time.

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  15. peggy1958sue says…
    08/26/2016

    God's speed Ali!

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  16. ChristineCampbell says…
    08/26/2016

    You listened to your instincts and they were right. I am SO glad you're ok. xx

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  17. Katinamartinez says…
    08/27/2016

    I am so thankful that for now you are doing well. I feel like you're a close friend or my sister so I'm thankful that you're doing well. Your classes have impacted my life so greatly I feel like I know you. I've thought of you many times over the last week as I've known you were struggling with health issues which Are never fun. Please take care of yourself and continue to listen to what your body needs. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs from California

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  18. ShellyK says…
    08/27/2016

    Wishing you a recovery that enables you to be you! You bring so much inspiration, goodness, love, and laughter into so many peoples lives: family, friends and followers...I hope for the best for you! take it easy...and get well! Love and Hugs!!

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  19. amandacarey says…
    08/27/2016

    So glad you were on to it Ali and are on the mend!! x

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  20. SherryLynn says…
    08/27/2016

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  21. SherryLynn says…
    08/27/2016

    I think we were ALL scared. Praise and prayers and continue recuperating.

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  22. minimd12 says…
    08/27/2016

    Wow Ali! Thanks for sharing your story. So glad you're on the mend and your tribe is all there for you. The part about crying though fear and talking through the tears is true for me too. You have always been inspirational in the way you share your struggles. Thank you. Take all the time you need to feel better. <3

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  23. vacchelli says…
    08/27/2016

    I am so glad you are feeling better and you are sharing your stories again. Get well soon! Lots of love from Germany!! :-*

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  24. kristi14 says…
    08/27/2016

    Oh my gosh, Ali. Thanks for sharing this story. So glad you're ok!

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  25. kirstiemareemacgowan says…
    08/27/2016

    Take it easy! Pleased you are ok!

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