Do you love how you look in a swimming suit?
Summertime makes me painfully aware of my body. Since having my son, Elias, two years ago, my curves are curvier, my tummy is softer, and my breasts are saggier.
My bikinis lay in a pile on the bottom shelf of my closet, along with dust bunnies and forgotten stilettos. For some reason, I can’t part with them, though I know I will likely not wear them again.
However, that doesn’t mean I don’t go swimming with my son.
It just means I wear a one-.jpgece.
I refuse to miss his high-.jpgtched pool-induced giggles because of my insecurities.
I refuse to let other women’s judging eyes at the pool prevent me from exposing his eyes to the wonder the sun glittering on the water.
I refuse to let my self-image influence his.
I refuse to sacrifice memories with my son because of a soft tummy.
Because at the end of the day, it is not about me.
It is about him.
I want him to remember his mom twirling him in the pool.
I want him to remember water fights.
I want him to remember jumping off the edge of the pool into my arms.
I want him to remember that his mom was there, with him.
As a reminder to myself of this desire to never sacrifice memories because of my insecurities, I created this layout:
THE STORY : Some of my favorite summertime memories are taking you to the pool, Elias. Since you were born in July, you were almost one the first time we took you, and from that moment, you've been a water baby. While my body doesn't look as good in a swimming suit since having you, I like putting one on more because it means I get to now swim with you! I love splashing together, twirling you in my arms, and you jumping into my arms. I love being your mommy.
photos: summers 2009 & 2010; journaling June 2010
Today, I hope to encourage you to push your insecurities aside. Put on that bathing suit. Run through the sprinkler. Jump in the pool. Splash.
Your child will remember those moments and your freedom – not how you looked in your swimming suit.
ABOUT JESSICA : Jessica Turner blogs at The Mom Creative where she discusses “a little bit of this and that” including crafting, parenting, faith, photography and great deals. She is also a writer for DaySpring’s (in)courage, Southwest Airlines’ official mommy blogger and a teacher for Big Picture Scrapbooking.
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